love,hate and confusion.

This is the first time ive writen something in so much of tears. I dnt think ive ever felt this dissapointed before. Just no one could ever understand how mad and upset i am with what just happen. I feel so confused sometimes...juz thinkin about what should i do about it. i dnt know...i dnt know and i dnt know. i just dnt fucken know. All i ever wanted was juz to have someone that would love me the same way as i did. I had it once but i guess the relationship was juz not meant for me.
I thought walking out frm ur life would be really hard for me but after waht happen i dnt think so anymore. Im here to stay to give it another chance because u want me to and because i love u eventhough it dosent feel the same way anymore. im never gonna deny the fact that i still do love you...how could i ever not love someone that is the closest thing to me. When we're happy it feels so great despite all the fights that we go through.